losing composure

Winter is here!

2005-11-27T01:23:00.000+01:00

Yup... Been snowing for 2 days now... So i guess winter is really here now. :P
I just hope its not too cold when i have to ride by bike to work monday morning... it would suck! >.<

This is the season for watching movies though, and i like that. :)
Watched 3 amazing korean movies this week, A Moment To Rememeber, The Classic and Windstruck. They were all soooo good. I'd recommend them to anybody who likes romantic movies! They all end so sadly thought.

And on work everybody were discussing how easy they fell asleep when they got home... Some even said the sometimes fell asleep sitting by the dinner table... I just sat there and thought about what was wrong with me... It feels like im the only one who barely sleeps at night... I still wont take any sleeping pills though... I'll just hope my sleeping problems work themselves out sooner or later. :)

Weekend is saved! :D

2005-11-05T01:49:00.000+01:00

So i was bored this wednesday, and guess what! I ordered myself a GameCube and a couple of games, so now the weekend is saved! :D

I almost have too much to do now, i have a ton of movies and tv shows stacked up on dvd and now these games. hehe
Well its nice to do some relaxing stuff after working all week. And since there is no parties this weekend, whats better than playing some nice games and watching a movie or two?

This week i almost didnt burn or cut myself at all either! Im getting really good at staying focused while im working. ^^

Yay!

2005-10-11T23:44:00.000+02:00

I got a packet from amazon.com today!!! I love getting dvds in the mail hehe. Got season 4 of Gilmore Girls and season 2 of Dead Like Me, two shows that everybody should watch!! I also got some new books, so now i have 5 books that i have to read... Currently reading 2 books, The Algebraist (very good space opera by Iain M. Banks) and Empress Orchid (cool book if your interested in books set in a chinese historical setting). :)

Oh and i scratched the wound where i burned my arm while welding, so now it looks even more gross! :p

Argh! its this late already! Better go to bed... 6 hours until i have to get up which means i will get approximately 4 hours of sleep, long live sleeping problems... Sov gott~ :)

Lookie look! :p

2005-10-09T17:54:00.000+02:00

Hmm i havent posted here on ages! But since i dont have anything to do i though i might as well update on whats been going on lately! :P

Lifes still shitty, with a couple of bright spots. I started working at a welding company, so yeah Jimmie is now an industrial worker! yay me! :p
Who would have thought that when i graduated from Digital Media school, hehe. :D
Other than that nothing much has happened, just been getting all the shows and movies i love on dvd so my collection is slowly growing, and so is my DS collection. :)
I just beat Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow and all, so now i have nothing to play :'(

And most sadly, i STILL cant manage to get a girlfriend! I suck at live. >.<>.<

Sigh...

2005-04-26T23:51:00.000+02:00

My right foot still hasnt healed up. Its a bit better and i can walk fairly normal on it as long as i dont put too much weight on the left part of the foot. Whats sad though is that i still cant rollerblade. I havent rollerbladed for over a week now so im going crazy! I've started to do a little homework and stuff though, but not that much, so i still spend a ton of hours every day just listening to music and staring out the window. The view is really boring though, especially when there's no clouds in the sky. :p

Oh and this other day, i saw a cloud that looked just like a face. And as i continued to stare at it it blinked, and then it moved closer. Then suddenly it went away and there was only boring clouds left... I guess i sat there for a long while since all of that happened, but yeah... thats how i spend my days...

I miss you! I miss you very much!

Hurt myself >.<

2005-04-19T23:49:00.000+02:00

Was rollerblading this crazy handrail down a 16step stair and guess what... I fell!! >.<
Like halfway down i lost balance and just threw myself out from it and landed all weird on the sidewalk and hurt both my feet and cut up my hand on some stone, so now i have this gross wound in my hand... Oh well, shit happens. I just got mad cause i couldnt stand on my foot so that i couldnt try it again. But im sure it will be all healed up in a day or two (hopefully ^^) and then im on it again! :D

Ugh and school is getting stressy now too, alot of stuff that has to be done soon and i wont get any more chances since this is the last semester. Im not motivated to work at all though, but i guess i have to do it or else i will fail in alot of classes and thats not very good.

Oh well, nothing to do about it now, instead im gonna go lie down in the bed and stare for a couple of hours and then hopefully get a nice 2-3 hours of sleep! ;)

Almost unbearable

2005-04-18T23:29:00.000+02:00

Im feeling more and more down lately. I cant just sit around and listen to music anymore, i need to do stuff. Cause right now, the only time when im actually happy is when i rollerblade, and sure i have rollerbladed more than usual lately due to the nice weather, but there are still alot of time thats beeing spent on nothing... Sure, staring out the window and listen to music is nice, but not ALONE 8+ hours every day. And all my friends is busy with their girlfriends or homework and stuff all the time so i dont know where to turn.
It almost feels like i'd be better of dead or something... I'm kinda messing up the last few months in school too since i dont feel like doing my homework, and i already have a bunch of stuff to do that im behind in.
But its only about 2 months left in school and i really hope that life after school has something good to offer me. If it dosnt i dont know what i'll do.

Life sucks :(

2005-04-12T23:51:00.000+02:00

Mmm havent updated in a while... Only stuff that i dont really want to write about has happened...
And temp is over since a week back, and i am already behind in my schoolwork, yay me.
Been rollerblading a few times though, and its nice since it made me think about better things for a couple of hours. Today a bum threatened to kill me too, he was yelling and stuff but then his stupid ass realized that not only i myself would knock him out, there was 2 other guys standing behind me and was just waiting for a reason to hit him. When i think about it, i should have hit him, it would help me get alot of aggressions out of my system. Lucky for him im not the violent type. ;)

So a few ups and a WHOLE lot of downs for me the past 2 weeks... And if it wasnt for rollerblading i dont know what i'd do. I'd have nothing left to live for seriously. The good thing about feeling down while rollerblading though is that when you realize that you are unloveable, you dont care anymore, so you try alot of crazy/stupid stuff. Well, i dont mind the fact that it hurts when i walk or lean on my arm or whatever, it kinda matches the feelings in my head. :)

Oh well, i doubt nobody finds it interesting about reading about my sucky life anyway so im just gonna go to bed and.... not sleep... Had about 1-2 hours sleep every night the last two weeks. :p

No temp!

2005-03-30T02:17:00.000+02:00

Yeah, i called in sick this monday and said i had the flu and probably wouldnt come for the whole week. So now im just gonna sit around and slack and hopefully get to work atleast thursday and friday on this other place that actually pays me. ;)
Its so nice to just sit around and watch Gilmore Girls and stuff all day. :D

And today i watched Jason X too, and boy was that movie crappy hahahah. I dont think i've ever seen a worse movie than that. And when CYBER JASON stepped in i was just like... please dont... :p
Well now i've seen all the movies in the Friday The 13th series anyway, so i guess i've accomplished something today haha. ^^

The weather is getting nicer by the day now too!!! So theres more rollerblading going down now! Cant wait for summer when nobody has school or anything and everybody just rollerblades. :D
Summer is <3

No temp!

2005-03-30T02:14:00.000+02:00

Schoolwork on a sunday!!!

2005-03-28T03:21:00.000+02:00

Yeah the world is a wicked place indeed! But we had to start working on our project work and now seemed like a good time to start since we have had almost half a year on us and its only 2-3 months left and we havent done anything until now... :p
Its a big thing too and gives a lot of points and stuff to the grades. :)

Still cant stop thinking about how amazing Beyond The Clouds was!!!!! Everybody has to watch it!!!

Oh and i have a dilemma! I cant decide if im gonna continue to read Orson Scott Cards books or take a short break and read something else inbetween. Hes an amazing writer, so i guess i'll end up continueing reading his books. :P

But oh well.. its 3:20 already... Better go to bed. :p

Session!

2005-03-27T03:20:00.000+02:00

Yesterday was easily the best day of this year so far! we had a big rollberblading session with a bunch of people from all over the country. And everybody was doing crazy stuff and pushing each others into doing even crazier stuff all the time! :D
Then we just hung at at the evening and i have to say that this was the craziest bunch of people i've ever hung out with. There was not a single moment when we didnt laugh and they were doing crazy stuff and telling hillarious stories all the time. XD
I wish we had rollingsessions like this more often! Made a lot of friends. They also invited me to alot of parties and stuff in their hometown so i guess i have to save up some money so i can afford to go, cause theres nothing more fun to hang out with that crazy people like this haha! :D

Today i havent done anything special though. But i watched Shinkai Makoto's new movie Beyond the Clouds and i have to say that this was one of the best movies i've ever seen! It totally has a spot at the top of my list next too Mononoke Hime! He's really good at describing feelings and stuff in his movies so you can really relate to the feelings of the characters. This one is a must see for everybody!

Oh by the way, Happy Easter everybody!!

Work > temp

2005-03-21T23:56:00.000+01:00

Mmm working for real is so much better than the crappy temp im at. I get to do more stuff AND get paid for it! Had to do alot of runnig up and down stairs today so im really tired in my legs now, and i bet its gonna hurt really much tomorrow. Man i need to work out or something. :p
I hope i get to work next week to instead of going to my temp. Cause i could really use the money.
Haha i was so tired this morning too, i feel asleep around 3am and had to get up again at 6am. ;)
It didnt really stop me from doing the job though and they complimented me alot cause i did it well and fast. :D
What would be even better would be if i had a gf or something to hang out with at nights though. I want to cuddle and watch movies and stuff... Need to get over my shyness soon...
Oh, and i listened to the new Trae album too! Every single album he does is awesome, and this is no exception. :D
I think im gonna buy a new mp3 player for the money i get from this weeks work, my 2 and a half year old one just isnt enough anymore. ;)
First i have to buy shoes and clothes though, but anyway, i wont get that money for a while so im just gonna go to bed and be content that i have the opportunity to make some money at all. ;)

Easter Holiday... and work..... >.<

2005-03-21T00:44:00.000+01:00

Yeah this week is easter holiday wich means that no school/temp for the whole week! But i kinda fixed some work for this week so i wont have vacation. Atleast i get paid though. ;)
Watched A Walk To Remember again today! Its so goooooood! And the end is so sad. :'(
That is yet another movie i have to buy on dvd soon when the money from next weeks work comes! :D
And and and!!! I finally got my hands on Trae - Drama! Been trying to get this for weeks now. Too bad its so late that i dont have time to listen to it now. Atleast i have something to look forward to when i get home from work tomorrow. :)
Well better go to bed now.. I have to get up at 6am.. that is.. 5 hours and 15 minutes. And counting with my nice little sleeping problem that means i'll get to sleep like... 3-4 hours maybe. Thats almost enough for a workingday that starts 7am and ends 4pm. :p

Movienight!

2005-03-20T02:17:00.000+01:00

Finally a weekend where i actually did something... Ok so i just went to some friends to watch a couple of movies but its still better than staring out the window. :)
It was kinda annoying to get there though... First my train was cancled so i had to wait 45 minutes on the cold cold trainstation, then i had to wait another 20 minutes for the buss... But then we had pizza and watched Mononoke Hime (thats the 6th time i see that movie now and its STILL as good as the first time i saw it!) so it was worth it. ;)
We also watched some weird movie called The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou and i have to say that movie was sooooooooooo hillarious. Laughed almost non stop through the 2 hour long movie. :p

Next time is holliday too! But im gonna work monday to thursday though so i can get some more money. And if i get to work the week after that too im sooo calling in sick the whole week or something from my temp the whole week. Its so much better to get paid that to stand in that shitty cafe and get nothing out off it...

But enough of that now, the warm cozy bed is waiting! ¦D

Ditched temp

2005-03-16T02:31:00.000+01:00

Mmm i was to tired and had too much pain in the body to go to my temp today. And i wont go tomorrow either since i talked to my friend who was there today and they where gonna make us do some crap that noone of us wants to do. :)
Then i tried to get some real work in stead of this crappy temp for the last week before school, so hopefully i'll be able to make some money at another place. Now i just have to come up with a nice excuse that can get me out of my temp for one week. :)
My knee was all swollen this morning too, its gone down a little though but its still feels weird to walk and hurts a little bit. My wrist got all messed up again too, just as it was almost healed from the fall over one year ago (yeah i've been walking around with my wrist all messed up so i havent been able to bend it or carry to heavy stuff with it for over a year :p). But its all my own fault so i cant complain about it too much. ;)
Its so nice to sleep in on weekdays too. ¦D

Body hurts! >.<

2005-03-15T00:56:00.000+01:00

Was rollerblading so hard today, trying all kinds of crazy stuff, which also meant that i fell alot... And now most parts of my body is hurting. :p
But it was still fun, even it was frustrating to not land all the tricks i wanted, but i came close atleast! Next time... next time. Hahahha. ^^
Since i dont want to walk around in pain i think im gonna take the day of from my temp tomorrow... Its not very comfortable to having your knee hurt just cause you stand up, heck it even hurts now as im sitting down... >.<
But anyway, i had fun and thats what counts right? ;)
And i rather rollerblade, fall and deal with the pain that just simply sit and stare out the window all day. ;)
Oh, and im trying to save up some money for a big rollerblading comp next month, but i dont know if i can afford it since i really need new shoes and stuff. We'll see what happens (i hope i can go though ;) ).

Zzzzz

2005-03-13T23:07:00.000+01:00

Hehe yeah today was a slow day too... I actually took a 2 hour nap around 1pm too, something i never do. :P
It was pretty nice to nap with music on, but when i woke up again i was soooooo out of the loop and it took hours for me to really wake up again. :D
Then i kinda went back to my stare-at-the-screen-until-something-happens-mode, and since nothing happened it was bored again... I did watch a movie though, Zatoichi. I've had it lying around for almost a year now and i finally got around to watch it, and it was pretty good. Some of the effects was kinda lame though, but overall it was a good movie with some hillarious moments. ^^
Now im bored again though... Argh everything sucks nowdays... I cant wait for the frikkin temp to be over and for the snow to go away. No use to complain that much about it though since theres nothing i can do with it.
I'm just gonna end this day early and hope that tomorrow brings happiness and sun! :D

Meaningless days

2005-03-13T01:39:00.000+01:00

The weekends are getting more and more boring. All i do is read a little and maybe watch some tv-show and the rest of the time is spent staring at the screen or out the window... Complete waste of time. I want to find some fun hobby or something else to do when im not rollerblading. Cause the days with bad weather is getting mighty boring now. I wonder what people who dosnt rollerblade do, they cant spend all their days like this, that would suck to much. :P
I think im just gonna go to bed and hope that something funnier will happen when i wake up again...

Oooh

2005-03-12T02:43:00.000+01:00

Yay, weekend again. Just one more week of temp left until easter holdiay to endure, then one week after that and im done!
We had a surprise birthday party for my friend today too, pretty fun. Me and my friend put together some cash and bought him some crap, hahaha. :)
Nothing much to say besides that... This week has been really boring, havent done anything except stand behind the counter at my temp and rollerbladed once. The rollerblading was fun though, as usuall... It's the only thing in my life thats always there and thats always fun. Can't wait until the summer when i can hopefully rollerblade alot more than i do now, even if i have to find a job or something too. :/
Oh well, im tired so i'm just gonna go to bed and hope that i can fall asleep fast for once. ;)

Stupid cold :(

2005-03-05T00:20:00.000+01:00

I've got a cold, i havent had one for ages. I had actually forgot how annoying it was. It makes me all drowsy and stuff. I started reading Xenocide today, but now my cold is worse so i cant even focus on the book. :(
The trains where late today again too! Waited for one and a half hour before the train finally came and then after a little while it just stopped and stood there for another twenty or so minutes.. I was so late to my temp haha, when i arrived there was less than an hour left until lunch. :p
But now im gonna turn up the heat in my room and go to bed and hopefully im rid of the cold when i wake up again. :)

New book and manga!

2005-03-03T23:32:00.000+01:00

Mmm today started off with my train beeing cancled, and the next one was the kind of train im not allowed to ride with my train/busscard. So i had to sit on the station for an hour before i got on my way to the temp. :p
But then i went from my temp at 2pm anyway cause i needed to turn in my foodbill thingies to the school so i can get the money for the first 5 weeks lunches. They said it would take a couple of days and then i'd get my money! Yay! ^^
Then i went to the bookstore cause i only have one more chapter left in Speaker for the Dead, so i bought the sequel Xenocide. I also picked up the first volume of the Gunslinger Girl manga. The anime was one of my favorite ones of all time so i couldnt resist. There was a ton of other books and manga that i wanted to buy, but since i need to buy shoes i had to restrain myself. :p
I have to wait until i get the money from my school to buy shoes though, since the ones i like costs 1400kr... Thats 200 US dollars. ;)

Day off!

2005-03-03T00:06:00.000+01:00

Yeah i took the day off today, didnt feel like standing on the trainstation if the train was late or anything(there was alot of snow!). The boss on my temp dosnt know it though.. I made two attempts to call in and say i wouldnt make it then i went back to try to sleep. :)
It was nice to lay around in the bed until noon in the middle of the week. ^^
Tomorrow im gonna go to school and try to get my lunchmoney back. I should get about 90 bucks or something. Then im gonna go buy books and manga! Yay! :D
This means i have a reason to leave my temp early too, hehehe.. XD

Snow snow snow >.<

2005-03-01T23:51:00.000+01:00

Mmm it was still snowing when i woke up this morning and there was snow EVERYWHERE! Made it a little harder to walk to the station since you couldnt see where the ice was. :p
When i sat on the train on my way to the temp i felt that i really didnt wanna go, so at first i just sat down on a bench on the trainstation in Malmö and read for an hour or so in my book. Then i thought that since its only about two and a half hour left until lunch i might as well go so my friend that also temps there wouldnt be lonely (i've been there alone one day and it SUCKED! >.<). So i went and i was really hungry, so of course, the owner of the place went out like 20 minutes before lunchbreak and didnt come back until one and a half hour later.. I was soooooooooooooo hungry heh. But as soon as he came back we just picked up our jackets and went. And then we went to the bookstore cause i wanted to check out some books and none of us really wanted to go back. ^^
So when we came back it was only about two hours left until we could go home so it was endurable. But i mean, he cant really complain, i've been in time every single day except this one and one other, and he always just gives us shitty assignements while he sit and talk to his relatives and friends in the cafeteria...
It's only three more weeks until the next holiday and then just one more week after that and we're done, so im gonna endure it!

Haha and my sleeping pattern for the past days... Oooh man... Hahaha. I go to bed around 12 and read for an hour or so, then i try to sleep, and guess what, its not working! I lay around for a good 3-4 hours before i fall asleep. But im pretty much used to it anyway, well im used to lying around for about and hour or two atleast. I'd like to figure out how to fall asleep fast before the summer comes though since it tends to get pretty warm at nights if you toss and turn for a couple of hours in the summer heat.
Anyway thats a future problem, right now i just want to read some more in Speaker for the Dead, so thats what im gonna do!

I hope you all sleep better than i do! XD

Bad day :(

2005-02-28T23:43:00.000+01:00

Today was a sucky day... I had to clean windows at my temp cause whoever that had done it hadn't done it very well... And i had to do it with just paper and water, how cheap can you be? So embarrasing to stand there in the middle of town and wash it off with paper while people walked by and stared. >.<
Then, when i went home, it started to snow again. No matter how much i hate snow i have to admit that walking home in the snowstorm was quite nice actually. But i still hope that this was the last snow of the year cause i want sun, warmth and alot of rollerblading! :D
And and and, i got to eat cake today(Mom's bf's birthday! Hurray!) ^^
I also tried to do some math, but i didnt understand a single thing of it, and thanks to our super "good" teachers i wont get any help in another 5 weeks when i return too school. Thats very nice since we're gonna have a test on this as soon as we get back. Good work planning the class. It made me kinda pissed of so i just threw my mathbook away and stared out of the window for an hour or so... And i got all self-pity and i HATE that. I hate myself for even letting myself into that kind of mood. I dont want to be some depressed kid that feels sorry for himself and crap like that and i will never let me be one either!

Well, atleast i can go to bed and read in my book, so i can end the day in a good way. ;)

Weekend is over.... :(

2005-02-27T23:38:00.000+01:00

That means it's back to the temp tomorrow... Three more weeks of sitting behind the counter, staring out the window... yay................

Atleast i watched another good movie today, Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind. It's another of studio Ghibli's movies. :)
It's not as good as Mononoke Hime is, but it's totally worth watching (this was the 2nd time i saw it:) ).
And some really interesting stuff is happening in Speaker for the Dead too! So i'm gonna go to bed and read more in it, and then try to get some sleep... Good luck with that. :P

Mononoke Hime

2005-02-27T02:58:00.000+01:00

I watched it again! I love that movie sooooooo much! Im a bit ashamed over the fact that i dont have it on DVD yet though... I think im gonna order it as soon as i get some money! :D
And today i enjoyed it with chocolate pudding, whipped cream and bananas! Could it have been any better? Hahaha. ^^

Other than that i didnt do very much today... I still have my sleeping problems.. so i guess it was just like any other day.. I doubt that i will ever get rid of my sleeping problems, sucks, but thats the way it is. But now im gonna go lie down in bed and hopefully i'll fall asleep around 5 or something. ^^

Love to roll!

2005-02-26T03:14:00.000+01:00

Happy happy happy! :D
Finally we got some nice weather to rollerblade in! And it actually went pretty good except the time where i almost slammed my head right into the ledge... But since i didnt it dosnt matter and we had fun! I can barely wait for better weather so i can rollerblade without a sweatshirt though, i dont like it. :P
And we took a bus to this place where we havent rollerbladed before and it took almost 45 mins to get there... Guess what, that place sucked and we went back after about 15 minutes of rolling. :P

This book is also getting more and more interesting! It's a little bit annoying that they use alot of swedish words in it though, since it makes it kinda weird for a actual swede to read it (The names and stuff that are in sweidsh dosnt make sense to me... Like Stark for example, why would anybody name their kid Strong? or Ren which means Deer :p).

Well i should go to bed or something now...

Days are passing by...

2005-02-25T03:02:00.000+01:00

The days are passing by and im just sitting here, doing nothing. I blame the weather a little for preventing me from rollerblading, but is there really nothing else i can do? I can't find the motivation to do school stuff, i can barely find the motivation to watch a movie... All i do is stare at my screen and listen to music... Well theres really nothing i can do about it, this is who i am. And according to the weatherguy on tv its gonna be good weather tomorrow so i can hopefully rollerblade then and forget about all this boring stuff.

I read a couple of chapters in Speaker for the Dead though, and i cant wait to read more! I need to get some better lights now when it gets dark this early though.. Neck hurts from sitting in weird positions... And some nice calm music would be nice too since i dont like to read without music, but it gets hard too focus from time to time on the book when there comes songs wit hreally complex lyrics. :p
I could turn the music off, but my damn harddrive is so loud that its too annoying to read listening to that. ^^
Well, i'll figure something out... i hope... ;)

Yay! New book! :D

2005-02-24T02:22:00.000+01:00

So i went to meet a friend i havent seen for a while today, and we walked around town so i could buy Speaker for the Dead. None of the big book stores had it, nor had had it in stock for months, but luckily i found it at this small bookstore thats hidden in some alley. I was really looking forward to reading this book since Ender's Game was so good, i hope this is just as good. ^^
I havent had time to read much yet though, and i had to take a break now since the only lights i have in my room is the one by my bed and my desktop lamp... So its hard to get enough light without sitting in a position that makes my neck hurt. I think im gonna go lie down in bed soon and read some more before (hopefully) falling to sleep fast... I'm kinda used to lying around for two or so hours now so fast would be like one hour of tossing and turning. :p
Well, it's not like it's the worst problem i could have, so im glad it's only problems falling asleep and nothing else. ^^

Snow is ebil!

2005-02-23T02:32:00.000+01:00

Yeah so i really wanted to rollerblade today, cause i didnt yesterday. But when i looked out of the window when i woke up it was all snowy again... :(
I can't wait for the summer to come and save me from this boring weather. :)
So nothing much happened today either... Just watching some anime and tv-shows that i've downloaded. I hope the weather gets better soon so i can go rollerblade and get rid of these guilty feelings about me not doing my math and stuff and just sit around and watch stuff all day.. :p

But i got a nice card from YooJung today! Than you very much, it made me very happy! ^^

Yay no temp for a week!

2005-02-22T02:35:00.000+01:00

Yes you heard me! This week is vacation thingy week so no temp for beans! Yay! :D
I spent most of the day watching different stuff like six or seven eps of Otogizoushi and two episodes of lost. Otogizhousi is sooooo good, i cant wait to get episode 25!

I should use this week to start working on my math though... I have to be done with this chapter by the time i get back to school and i havent even opened the book yet... Well i have six weeks to do it, but i KNOW that i always push stuff like that in the future and then i end up doing it the last day and it just sucks. :p
But i', gonna try to not do that mistake this time, i dont want to fail this course.
Man i suck so hard at doing stuff that i dont really want to do... Can't focus on it for long and it always ends up with me ignoring it and chat with people on irc instead. I think im gonna have a hard time when i get out in working-life, if i ever do considering how stupid i am. >.<

Then i got Grayskul's album Deadlivers. It's hiphop, but not the yo yo gangsta stuff you see on MTV and such. This one is recomended for everybody that wants some alternative hiphop with a little more depth to it than the stuff you see on tv. ;)
Oh, and i got MF Doom's album Mm Food too. Havent listened through it all yet but so far its alright. It's also very alternative like Grayskul. :)

Well i should probably go to bed soon, its 2:35am after all. ;)

Why am i there?

2005-02-17T23:36:00.000+01:00

Im getting so tired of my temp. All we get to do is stand behind the counter... and theres so little costumers... From when i started until lunch today there where two costumers. Its so boring to just sit there and do nothing.
Lately my body has started to reakt weird to food too, i cant eat much at all before i start to feel sick. I can never eat until im full or content. :(
This morning i took two bites of my sandwitch and then i though i was gonna throw up. Then at lunch i bought a falafel, and i could barely eat half of it. :(

Oh and i finished readin Ender's Game this monday! It was so good, and i got so attached of it during the 6 days i read it that when i finished the last page i was just lying there on my bed feeling empty. I can't wait until i get my money next week so i can buy the sequel!
And to fill up all my traveling time until then i started reading Storm Warning by Mercedes Lackey, if its even a tenth as good as Enders Game then its worth reading. :P

Again and again?

2005-02-13T23:41:00.000+01:00

Yet another weekend with lots of nothing... No rollerblading or anything. I'm really getting tired of the weather here now, i want it to be summer! Or atleast not snowy... I dont like to just sit and stare at my screen and listening to music, while waiting for the weather to get better... And the fact that most of the people i want to talk with live in other timezones that makes them hard to catch online nowdays isnt making it any more fun to just sit here. I wish i could move to some other place with better weather and thats not... here... I want change, I want to meet new people and rollerblade new places. And I want to meet all the people I'm talking to online too. I think I'm gonna save up all my money, and work on summervacation and then take a flight to USA or something, if anyone wants me to visit them that is. It would be really nice to meet some of the fun people I've met online and see how they live and stuff. ^^
Well its almost time to go to bed... I dont know why i go to bed this early, its not like I fall asleep any faster. Well its good to have a routine, i think. :p

Snow! >.<

2005-02-13T02:23:00.000+01:00

Yet again does mothernature decide to slap me in the face with a snowstorm on the weekend. So yet again she kept from rollerblading today (well its not like i dont rollerblade the other days of the week, i actually rollerbladed yesterday, but i wanted to rollerblade today too!). But it game me some time to read in my book and watch some stuff that i've downloaded thats just lying there waiting to be watched. :p
I only have 4 chapters left in Ender's Game though. :(
Its so darn good! ^^ And i think this is the first time i ever read a book in less than a week (if i read the 4 chapters before tuesday that is). :p
Reading in english is actually better than reading in swedish in my opinion, its more fluent, so i guess im gonna keep on reading in english instead of getting crappy translated swedish books. :D
Im gonna go to bed soon and try to get some sleep... I still havent gotten rid of my sleeping problems yet. :(
I dont know what to do about it... I guess i'll just have to live with lying around in bed for 1 or 2 hours every night before i fall asleep since i've had the problems for more than 3 years now... :p

Moons and such :)

2005-02-11T18:16:00.000+01:00

Today the most awesome moon is showing itself in the sky, and its only 6:15pm! You can see the full shape of it, but its only a small slice thats actually glowy! Looks really cool! :D

I also finally picked up a new book this tuesday. Its Ender's Game by Orson Scoot Card, I'm only halfway through it but so far its been a really good book! Thanks for recomending it Jinxy! <3

And i have to complain once more about my temp and the shitty system for getting food money from the school! I now have about 7 or 8 bucks left.. and its supposed to feed me lunch for the rest of the month... I really need to get my money from school, i cant wait until after my temp (in about 7 weeks, 2weeks vacation in there though) but i really really need it... :( Well atleast its friday now so i dont have to buy lunch the next too days... It also means that i cant spend any money on anything fun either though... Cause then i cant eat the next week at all... >.<

Sundays suck!

2005-02-06T21:31:00.000+01:00

Sundays has to be the suckiest day of the week. I always feel a little bit sad on sundays since i know i have to get up way to early on mondays... And not even rollerblading could cheer me up as much as it usually does. Sure, i still got really happy from rollerblading, but as soon as i took my skates of and jumped on the buss to start my 1 hour journey home again i felt sad. And the fact that everbody has girlfriends to go to and i dont makes me even sadder... I want someone to cuddle with too! >.<
I'm not lucky at all when it comes to girls. :(

On the other hand i rewatched Terry Pratchetts Soul Music this weekend. This is one of the coolest cartoons out there, if you havent seen it i suggest you do, cause Terry Pratchets fictionary world Discworld is hillarious. I think im gonna get some of the Discworld books if i dont find the book Jinxer told me to read (Enders Game).

Sore body

2005-02-02T07:55:00.000+01:00

It hurts to wake up so much today. My body is all sore and hurting from all the falling i did while rollerblading yesterday. It didnt go very well. :p
And my room is really cold to, and it hurts to shake this much... >.<
Plus, i have to get ready and leave to get to my temp thingy. Im really not feeling like going there today, but it wouldnt be fair for my friend thats there too to let him work alone. Well, i better get ready now, the train leaves in 40 minutes. :)

Wohooo

2005-01-31T23:16:00.000+01:00

I finished reading my book today, and it was the last one in the Trilogy Of the Otori. It was, just as the two other books, really good! The ending was sooooo romantic even though that most of this book was about wars and stuff. I wont spoil anything since i think everybody should read these books, it has everything! Read read read!

Oh, and since i dont have any more books to read, im open for suggestions!

I also went to the school to complain about the fact that we wont get food money until after we're finished with our temp. And after complaining that i dont have that much money, i walk into the store and buy manga for the same amount of money i could eat lunch for about two weeks. >.<
But i'm not worried though, cause i can always get money from mom or something, i just thought it was stupid that we have to put out all that money when a normal student only has his ~100$ to live on each month...

While at school i also picked up the catalogue thingy with all the classpictures in it, and i have to say that my smile looks really fake... If i had a scanner i'd show it to everybody so you all could laugh, but unfortunately i dont have one. :(

Well, i miss webcam chats too... Its way more fun to chat with webcams, but now i rarely even get to chat with anyone cause they are in school and stuff. :(

Mothernature > Me

2005-01-27T22:38:00.000+01:00

Once again mothernature played me a little prank. So everything starts to dry up and i was getting really juiced on rollerblading, and then on my lunch today, i walk by the place i wanted to rollerblade at, and guess what... Even though all the other snow is gone, somehow theres still snow on that particular place somehow... :(

While talking about lunch and stuff, i have to say its a great thing. Me and my friend (we are at the same temp thingy place whatever) and we are both bored so we always take really long lunches. Today we took the buss like, halfway to the other side of Malmö (thats swedens 3rd biggest city) just to get something to eat, it only took like 80 mins though, but thats still about50 minutes longer than everyone else gets. Hahaha. :D

And i found out that theres a third season of The Simple Life. Haha, i just love to watch these two girls do really stupid things! ^^
I just wish my downloads would go a little faster so i could actually watch the two first eps now and not wait until tomorrow to watch it. But thats just the way it is, and if i dont find anything fun to do tomorrow, i can atleast entertain myself by watching them make fools of themselves. :D

XX-bored

2005-01-26T19:54:00.000+01:00

Yeah, im extra extra bored today... I've been wanting to rollerblade for like over a week now, but since it started snowing all of a sudden again i havent been able to... But today it was kinda nice weather so i thought i'd call some friends and go rollerblade, but guess what... Nobody answears! >.<
And to make things even worse, nobody fun is online so im just listening to music and staring at the screen. So now im just waiting for The O.C. to start so i have something to watch, and then i'm gonna watch the latest Gilmore Girls episode cause YAY! IT FINALLY STARTED AIRING AGAIN! ^^ Been waiting so long (november last year ;) ) for the continuation of that show :p

Profile Picture

2005-01-23T23:27:00.000+01:00

I added a little profliepicture, nothing serious. :p
I'm really bored so i went all guerilla and took pictures of it, and i thought it would be fun to actually have a profilepicture, even though you cant really see my face. ^^

I'll take a good picture and add it sometime when i'm even more bored than i am now. ;)

Boredom

2005-01-23T13:00:00.000+01:00

Im really bored now... I really wanted to rollerblade today but now it snows. And it made me realize once again that other than rollerblading i have absolutely nothing... Im just sitting here, waiting for something to happen, and listening to music. The only people i actually enjoy hanging with is the people i rollerblade with and a few others, but they all live outside of town (yeah i go out of town everytime i go rollerbladin.. :p). I'd really like to have someone fun to hang out with here too, since i really dont feel like going out of town now that its snowing, and it would be nice to have someone that you feel comfortable with close to you.
Furthermore i realized how far behind i am in this whole life thing... Everybody has ambitions and dreams they work hard to accomplish while i have nothing... I just want to rollerblade... And since im kinda lazy and stupid i'll probably have a hard time getting a job so i have an income after school, while the people who work hard in school and stuff probably will be far better of than me.

Well, life sucks... But theres really nothing i can do about it. I've tried a million of times to work harder in school and stuff, but its not really my thing and i cant seem to connect with non-rollerblading people even though i try.

And this whole temp thing sucks... I still have 8 more weeks... 8 weeks of working for free, if i dont i wont be able to graduate... Stupid school system...

I hope my life takes a turn for the better soon or else i dont know what i'll do.

First day of temp is over!

2005-01-17T22:18:00.000+01:00

Yay, first day on my temp is now over. I have to say that it wasnt as bad as i thought. First i just browsed some pages for an hour or so, then i had to reinstall a computer and then try to fix some stuff on another computer. So its quite easy and not very stressfull. ;)
The downpart though, is that its both a netcafe and a shop, so people smoke in there and now my clothes smell like crap. :(

To round the day of i made chocolate pudding and watched Appleseed (the new 2004 version). It had some of the most amazing CG i've ever seen! And even though they use CG they still choose to make it look more like an anime than, for example, Final Fantasy: Spirited Away. So more of this please! It's a must see for all the fans of good actionmovies out there. :)

Now i will go to bed early (its only 10:20pm :p) and read in my book. ;)

Temp >.<

2005-01-16T23:12:00.000+01:00

Tomorrow is the start of the temp thingie i have to do... 9 weeks of working for free... Why dont they nail me up on the wall and let me suffer there instead... And i just realized that i dont have any batteries for my mp3players so its 30 mins of train and about 15 mins walk to get there and the same amount of time to get home... I dont like traveling without music. >.<
And then i have to pay all my food myself too... We get ~3$ a day to eat, but we dont get it until we come back to school AND have that paper thingie that you get when you buy stuff as proof that we have eaten every day... So thats 9 weeks of food i have to pay... So i dont know if i can afford to spend money on batteries and stuff at the same time since i only have 100$ each month to live on and about 60$ of that goes to food... Why dont they just give me the money now, its not like i will take the money and not eat for 9 weeks... It's all a conspiracy against me! ^^
On the other hand atleast i have a friend that works in the area so i have someone to eat with. :p

And i miss talking to everybody! I rarely see you guys online anymore now that school and stuff has started! :(
I hope that your all good and have a better time than me! :P

Woooooh! Long survey!

2005-01-13T21:26:00.000+01:00

I did this long long long survey that Ally has done on her blog too. I actually had to do it twice since when i was almost done doing it the first time i accidently entered a url in that window (i kinda pressed shit-enter instead of alt-enter that opens a new tab in firefox.... >.<) . But anyway, here it is!

Really Long Survey (over 200)
Created by starsbleed2nite and taken 60713 times on bzoink!
What is your name?	Jimmie
Are you named after anyone?	Not as far as i know
What's your screename?	MeanMrBean
Would you name a child of yours after you?	Naah :p
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?	Alexis or something pretty like that :)
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?	I like my name!
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?	Yeah, alot of people spell it Jimmy instead of Jimmie
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?	No
Basics
Your gender:	Male
Straight/Gay/Bi:	Straigh
Single?	Unfortunately yes :(
If not, do you want to be?
Birthdate:	28th june 1986
Your age:	18
Age you act:	18-ish
Age you wish you were:	I like beeing 18 :)
Your height:	~180cm
Eye color:	Green blueish
Happy with it?	Yeah
Hair color:	Kinda blondbrownish :p
Happy with it?	Yes
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:	Righty
Your living arrangement:	House :p
Your family:	Divorced parents, one sister and one brother
Have any pets?	Nope
Whats your job?	Im going to school ;)
Piercings?	Nope
Tattoos?	Naah
Obsessions?	Dont think so
Addictions?	Rollerblading and chatting :p
Do you speak another language?	I speak swedish and english
Have a favorite quote?	2roll4life
Do you have a webpage?	Nope, i never finish the ones i start :P
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?	Yeah, where else could i live? :p
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?	Yes
Do you have any secrets?	Yeah i have a few ;)
Do you hate yourself?	No way!
Do you like your handwriting?	Yes i think it looks kinda nice ;)
Do you have any bad habits?	Not as far as i know :p
What is the compliment you get from most people?	Some people say im handsome, dunno if its just to be nice or what. And some say that i have nice style when i rollerblade
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?	Lord of the Lazy
What's your biggest fear?	To not be able to rollerblade
Can you sing?	Dont think so :p
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?	No! I like the way i am, its me after all :P
Are you a loner?	Naah, i just choose who to hang out with carefully :)
What are your #1 priorities in life?	Rollerblading and chatting >.<
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?	Yes :p
Are you a daredevil?	Somewhat
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?	I dont like that im so shy..
Are you passive or agressive?	Depends on the situation :p
Do you have a journal?	Yeah, your looking at it ;)
What is your greatest strength and weakness?	I dont know about my strenghts, but my weaknesses is that im lazy and shy. And i tend to get kinda rude if people annoy me
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?	I like the way i am now, but if i had to choose something i would get prettier abs or something... I dunno
Do you think you are emotionally strong?	Yeah
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?	Not that i can think of
Do you think life has been good so far?	Yeah, its been great!
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?	To not take stuff for granted
What do you like the most about your body?	I dunno... Theres no part thats better than anything else really..
And least?	Same as above..
Do you think you are good looking?	Naah i dont think im good looking, but i dont think im ugly either
Are you confident?	Depends on what we're talking about ;)
What is the fictional character you are most like?	Probably some guy in the background that noone notices..
Are you perceived wrongly?	Yeah, alot of people see me for someone im not
Do You...
Smoke?	No
Do drugs?	Nope
Read the newspaper?	I read the comics :p
Pray?	No
Go to church?	No, not unless its a wedding or somethin
Talk to strangers who IM you?	Yeah i do that sometimes
Sleep with stuffed animals?	I dont have any :)
Take walks in the rain?	Nope, i dont have anyone to walk with :(
Talk to people even though you hate them?	I dont really hate anybody
Drive?	Nope, i havent got my license yet.. Darn lazyness :p
Like to drive fast?	Naah, im not in a rush anywhere
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?	I cant hear anything wrong with it :p
Hurt yourself?	No way!
Been out of the country?	Yeah, a couple of times (mostly in Denmark which is like... 40 mins with train over the ocean ^^)
Eaten something that made other people sick?	No, if other people found it gross i probably would too :p
Been in love?	Nope
Done drugs?	No
Gone skinny dipping?	Naah seems way to cold :P
Had a medical emergency?	No
Had surgery?	Yeah i had it once when i was younger
Ran away from home?	Nope
Played strip poker?	Nope
Gotten beaten up?	No
Beaten someone up?	Naah, never been to a fight in my life :P
Been picked on?	Not to my face, people tend to talkbehind my back when they think i dont hear it though
Been on stage?	Nope, too shy :p
Slept outdoors?	Yeah, a couple of times on camp when i was younger
Thought about suicide?	No way! Theres way better things to do than beeing dead
Pulled an all nighter?	Yeah :p
If yes, what is your record?	5 days and a couple of hours :p
Gone one day without food?	No way! I like food too much ;)
Talked on the phone all night?	I dont like talking in the phone very much
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?	Nope
Slept all day?	Naah.. I only sleep half the day ^^
Killed someone?	Hhahahha no :p
Made out with a stranger?	Nope
Had sex with a stranger?	No
Thought you're going crazy?	I was born crazy!
Kissed the same sex?	Ew no!
Done anything sexual with the same sex?	No way! Gross!
Been betrayed?	Not as far as i know :p
Had a dream that came true?	I rarely remember my dreams so i dont know :P
Broken the law?	Havent we all ?
Met a famous person?	I wish! :D
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?	Nope
On purpose?	No
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?	Not as far as i know, if i had it just slipped out. Sorry if i did! :p
Stolen anything?	Nope
Been on radio/tv?	Nope
Been in a mosh-pit?	Yeah a couple of times ;)
Had a nervous breakdown?	Naah
Bungee jumped?	No, but i wanna try it sometime
Had a dream that kept coming back?	Cant tell, i rarely remember my dreams ^^
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?	Yes!
Miracles?	Yeah, they do happen
Astrology?	A little ;)
Magic?	Naah, but it would be cool though :p
God?	Of course, who else would be up there?
Satan?	Hmm havent thought that much about this dude, but hes in South Park so why not? haha
Santa?	He's retired man, get over it!
Ghosts?	Yeah
Luck?	Yes
Love at first sight?	Yeah, you just have to bump in to the right person ;) :D
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?	Yeah, i think that there could be too much of the good
Witches?	Naah, and if they really are real, they sure hide well :p
Easter bunny?	Bunnys dont come alone! They come i groups!
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?	Of course! You just have to meet the right person
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?	Im not irish :p
Do you wish on stars?	I've never seen a falling star, but if i ever do i will wish on it
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?	Naah i think theres a heaven for everybody
Do you think God has a gender?	Yeah, s/he has to have a gender!
Do you believe in organized religion?	Im not really into religion
Where do you think we go when we die?	To the place we love the most, our own little heaven.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?	Not that i know of
Who is your best friend?	I have too many good friends to choose one
Who's the one person that knows most about you?	Hmm either Odie or Jinxer
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?	To keep on trying
Your favourite inside joke?	I dont have inside jokes >.<
Thing you're picked on most about?	My clothes, but noone dares to say it to my face! People just talk behind my back about it when they think i dont hear
Who's your longest known friend?	I cant really remember :p
Newest?	Ally
Shyest?	Noones shy except me >.<
Funniest?	Hmm Odie, Ally or Jinxer
Sweetest?	Odie, Ally or Jincer here too :p
Closest?	Hmm hard to tell, Jonas i guess, hes the one i hang out with the most
Weirdest?	Jinxer, no doubt about it :p
Smartest?	I think one of Odie, Ally and Jinxer should be here too, they'r all smart :D
Ditziest?	Everybody is so collected and calm these days :p
Friends you miss being close to the most?	Some of my old classmates
Last person you talked to online?	Ally
Who do you talk to most online?	The infamous trio fits in here too, Jinxer, Ally and Odie :)
Who are you on the phone with most?	I rarely talk on the phone :p
Who do you trust most?	I tell Ally, Odie and Jinxer most stuff that i find embarrasing and that noone else know of, so i guess on of them ;)
Who listens to your problems?	Guess who! drummroll yeah, the same trio as everywhere else, noone else seems to care if i have problems..
Who do you fight most with?	I dont really fight with anyone. Its just "that movie sucks, this one is better" kinda arguments i have from time to time with my friends :p
Who's the nicest?	Ally, Odie and Jinxer. Darn, i can never choose one of them... They are all so nice :D
Who's the most outgoing?	Jonas, he pushes himself, and everybody around him to do better and better all the time
Who's the best singer?	I've never heard anybody sing except for a few bars here and there when we listen to music
Who's on your shit-list?	Nobody, if i dont like someone i just ignore them completely :p
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?	Nope
Who's your second family?	My rollerblading friends i guess
Do you always feel understood?	Naah, i feel misunderstood most of the times..
Who's the loudest friend?	Jonas and Herdman combined :p
Do you trust others easily?	Just the ones i meet online for some reason :p
Who's house were you last at?	Jonas
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:	I dont know.. i never get hugged :(
Do your friends know you?	No
Friend that lives farthest away:	Its close, but i think Ally lives farthest away
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?	No! Love is a beautiful thing :)
What do you find romantic?	Cuddling :)
Turn-on?	Anything cute
Turn-off?	Anything gross! :p
First kiss?	silence
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?	I would feel very happy! ^^
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going	I prefer to know them first
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out	Yes! All the time.... I'm so shy >.<
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv	Hmm nope dont think so
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?	I sure hope so!
What is best about the opposite sex?	The eyes! Girls have such pretty eyes!
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?	There is none!
What's the last present someone gave you?	It was the christmasgifts, so dvd's, book's manga, braclet and some other stuff :P
Are you in love?	No :(
Do you consider your significant other hot?	I dont have one significant other >.<
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?	Noone
You wanted to kill?	I dont wanna kill anyone!
That you laughed at?	Some alcoholic that usually roam around at one of the spots where we rollerblade :p
That laughed at you?	Fanny when i fell while rollerblading :p
That turned you on?	I haven been turned on by someone recent >.<
You went shopping with?	Ehm i bought a kebab with Jonas if that counts :p
That broke your heart?	Noone yet
To disappoint you?	Noone has dissapointed me recently
To ask you out?	Noone here either :'(
To make you cry?	I havent cried since i was 9 or something
To brighten up your day?	Ally and Jinxer today. Just talking to them brightens up my day :)
That you thought about?	Ally, if she liked the songs or not :p
You saw a movie with?	Jonas and Herdman
You talked to on the phone?	Blixt
You talked to through IM/ICQ?	Ally
You saw?	Jonas
You lost?	Noone
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?	No, its cold!
Will it be with your significant other?	Im not goung out...
Or some random person?	Still not going out :P
What are you wearing right now?	Sweatpants and t-shirt
Body part you're touching right now:	My feet are touching each other
What are you worried about right now?	That the weather will suck tomorrow so i cant rollerblade :)
What book are you reading?	Brilliance of the Moon
What's on your mousepad?	My mouse?
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:	Tired, happy, bored, relaxed, dreamy :P
Are you bored?	A little bit yeah
Are you tired?	Yeah, i sleep really bad at night.. :(
Are you talking to anyone online?	No, everybody just went away, darn timezone differences :p
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?	Nope
Are you lonely or content?	Im a little bit lonely :)
Are you listening to music?	Yeah, just downloaded one of the remastered Dj Screw tapes! :D
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Beans vs Streetlights = Beans KO:ed

2005-01-11T23:55:00.000+01:00

Rollerblading is the best thing i know really, i said it once and i'll say it a million times again if i have to! No matter what, rollerblading always makes me happy. Today was really nice too, and now i have my train/busscard so i can travel for free everywhere i want in Skåne! ^^
The landing was a bit hard today though. The ground was a little wet so it was all slippery and stuff and i fell a couple of times but nothing serious. ;)
When we where done rollerblading we where heading over to my friend Jonas appartement, and on the way there me and Herdman saw this crazy roll/gap combo and i was walking and looking at it and not looking at where i actually walked.... So all of a sudden i slammed my head into a streetlight. And damn... Herdman laughed so much that he could hardly breathe. :p

Oh and i now got a temp... So 9 weeks of not beeing able to irc between 9am and and 3pm AND I DONT GET PAID! >.<
But well... I have to do it or else they wont give me any grades at all... Sucks!

School >.<

2005-01-10T15:28:00.000+01:00

Today was the first day of the new semester of school, and i have to say they day started of real bad... I woke up late so i had to shower and eat and everything in like 15 mins, and when i was gonna turn on the light to find my clothes the lightbulb just exploded, scared me like crazy! :p
Then i had to half-run to the trainstation and i had to run out on trafficated streets cause i didnt have time to wait for the cars to stop.. >.<
When i finnally got to the trainstation the stupid train was 15 minutes late, which means that i could have taken it easy and didnt really have to stress... Great... And just cause it was the first day i just assumed that when we came to school we we're just gonna have a quick "welcome back everybody" talk and then get sent home again, but no... They gave us assignements and stuff to do already, and where just gonna be in school for one week and then we're gonna temp for 9 weeks..
Here comes even more crap... Since i didnt find a place where i wanted to be myself i was just assigned one and now i have to call this guy whos name i cant even pronounce and i REALLY TRULY hate to talk with people that i dont know in the phone.. I rarely speak in the phone at all since it feels weird.. :p
Now i just hope its a funny place to be so i wont get bored for 9 weeks... And 9 weeks? Whats up with that.. It would be enough with 4 or so weeks, espescially since our whole class is behind in math due to bad scheduling from the teachers so now we have to make this whole chapter ourselves without the possibility to ask teachers and such for help, and i suck so bad at math.... >.<

And i still sleep really bad at night so i didnt get more than a 2-3 hours of sleep either.. So tired.. :p

Well hopefully something good will come out of all this...

Sleep?

2005-01-07T15:41:00.000+01:00

You slept well? I sure didnt... I sleep worse and worse every night... I though it was alright when i spent 1-2 hours a night staring in the wall before i went to sleep, but this is redicilous. The past couple of weeks my sleep has been getting worse and worse. I toss and turn for hours and when i finally fall asleep i wake up 30 minutes later and then i have problems going back to sleep again... I dont know what to do about it either. :(

And the people in this country really are stupid... No matter what i say, they choose to take my oppinions as a personal insult. I cant have a conversation about ANYTHING with my friends cause as soon as i state my oppinion they get mad at me and think i insulted them or something. Soon i'll just isolate myself from the world and talk to the people i've met online, cause atleast they are intelligent and can have a fun conversation without getting angry and start to insult everybody.
But look at it from the bright side, if this was Monkey Island, i'd be really good at Insult Swordfighting (wow that was nerdy -______-;;;).

The Grudge

2005-01-03T22:14:00.000+01:00

Today i watched the U.S. remake of the japanese movie Ju-On: The Grudge. I have to say it was really well made! Scared me good a couple of times and had this spooky mysterious feeling through the whole movie. I dont know how good the japanese version is though since i havent seen that one yet, but i think im gonna try to get my hands on that one too! :D

Finished reading my book! :)

2005-01-03T01:24:00.000+01:00

I finished reading my book (this is higly unusual for the normally not-reading bean)!
It was Grass For His Pillow by Lian Hearn, the second book in the Tales Of The Otori trilogy. Sofar its a really good trilogy and i have high expectations on the last book, Brilliance Of The Moon.

I've had some serious problems with getting sleep the last couple of days though... Normally i lay around, tossing and turning for about 1-2 hours or so before i fall asleep but now i get none, or very very little sleep at night. I think its cause i dont rollerblade as much now that its bad weather and i dont have my train/busscard (i ride all the busses and trains in the southern area of sweden for free normally) and i dont have enough money to go rollerblade as much as i want. But i hope i will sleep better after i get my new card on the 7th. I am really looking forward to go rollerblading then too so im praying for the weather gods to shine for me on that day. ;)

Happy New Year! ^^

2005-01-01T02:39:00.000+01:00

Happy new year everybody!
Its now 2005 and i hope every body will have a very very happy new year!

Much love to Odie, Ally, Jinxer, Seppuku and everybody else out there! <3
I hope your year will be as good as possible and everything turns out as you want it too!

A Cinderella Story

2004-12-28T23:49:00.000+01:00

Hillary Duff!! <3<3<3<3<3
This is the best version of the Cinderella tale there is, period! Hillary Duff plays her part perfect.
This movie has everything romance, drama, romance, comedy and some romance! I like movies like this. Alot of people dont, but i like light teenage lovestories so deal with it! :p
Well anyway, watch this one! Its reeeeeeeally good! :)

Wimbledon

2004-12-27T01:39:00.000+01:00

No no, not the tournament, the movie! Yeah the movie!
So i watched it, and enjoyed it. Even though im not a big fan of tennis i found this movie pretty good, mainly cause it had a love story in it. I like romantic movies(again jinxer, no im not gay! >.<), and this was a pretty nice one. It had Kirsten Dunst in it so i guess this movie couldnt be bad no matter what. ;)
So if you'r in the mood of a light romantic drama i suggest you watch this one!

Now i cant get Kirsten Dusnt cuteness out of my mind. >.<

Oh, and i found this cool internetradio thingy too. www.bassdrive.com . Its a dnb and jungle so if you'r not into that kind of music i suggest you stay away from it. ;)

Merry Christmas!

2004-12-25T01:57:00.000+01:00

Yeah Merry Christmas to everybody out there! :)
I hope you all will have a nice holiday!
And it was a white christmas too, it snowed all morning so there were snow everywhere! :p

Beans is lucky today too! I got so many nice presents! Four volumes of manga, 2 books i really wanted, the Star Wars trilogy dvd box (yeah its kinda dorky but hey, they are classics! ^^) and of course two pairs of socks! Cant have a christmas without getting socks. ;)
One of the books i got was this kinda compilation thingy where they cover about 140 of the greates manga artist throughout the time, very very interesting! and its 580 pages thick to! o.O

So merry christmas Odie, Jinxy, Ally and Seppuku (and everybody else that happnes to read my blog :p)! <3

Bean is free! :D

2004-12-22T01:25:00.000+01:00

Yay, so now there is no more school for this year! :D
It was a really good last day of the term too, since i won a 256mb USB flash memory stick! :)

And i was at IKEA with my cousin to buy gifts for grandma too. She really deserves some nice gifts since she always feeds us, no matter what time we go to her she always makes us food, 3pm or 3am, dosnt matter. :p
Grandma of the year easily! ^^

2 more days until christmas eve! Just 2 more days until i can open my presents! Cant wait! Im gonna boil over of impatience! >.<

A Good Day!

2004-12-20T23:23:00.000+01:00

Yeah, today was a really good day. :)
First i went home early from school cause it was boring, and when i got home, i found not one but TWO things that made me really really happy im the mailbox! The first was a christmascard from none other than Odie! ^^
This is the first christmascard someone ever sent to me! Made me very very happy! Thank you thank you thank you! ^^
And the second was the thingy saying that i could go get my Gilmore Girls and Dead Like me DVD boxes down at the post office (no jinxy, these shows are NOT gay!). It was weird though, cause even if i had already paid for the DVDs and shipping i still had to pay another 30$ just to get the package... I wonder why... But it dosnt really matter since i still saved about 60$ by ordering from the states instead of a swedish store. :p

I guess the shootingstar in my chocolate chirstmas calender gave me good luck!

And theres only one more day left in school then its christmasholiday! Yaaaaaay! :D

Home Alone! :D

2004-12-19T01:59:00.000+01:00

So my family left to go skiing today and since i didnt wanna come with them im home alone! :)
Its so relaxing, noone that buggs me about anything! There is one downpart though... i have to make all my food myself. It takes so much time(i mean 10 minutes to warm up a pizza!?! Outrageous! ^^)!
I also watched Home Alone on tv today, its such a funny movie. I have totally lost count on how many times i've seen it, but it dosnt matter since its still as funny as the first time i saw it. ^^
And before they left my mom put all my presents under the tree. I wanna know whats in them so bad! >.<

There was snow today too, so i can really feel christmas coming closer! Only 5 days away! :D
Jingle bells, jingle bells! :D

Failure once again... :(

2004-12-15T20:08:00.000+01:00

So i failed this test too... Well, i had alot of points on it, but there was this one thing i didnt know how too do, and since i didnt, my teacher said that he couldent pass me... The good thing though is that i can retake the test this friday and now i only have one thing too study. ;)
I guess everything will work out fine in the end. :p

And this one little beanlet went shopping for christmasgifts today. I ended up buying just one present for my sis... I never thought it was this hard too buy presents for people. >.<
Well i just have too buy something for my brother too... And maybe for my grandmother(best grandma ever! ^^).

Got a real christmastree today too! Its now decorated and stuff. Just have a few more things too buy for it though, cause what is a christmastree without glittering stuff?(i used most of the decoration thingys in my own room hehe) :)

And for the few people that read this and are still in school, GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR FINALS! *cheers* ^^

Math = Ebil! -____-;;;

2004-12-14T23:16:00.000+01:00

So i have another math test comming up tomorrow.... This should be a little bit easier than the one i failed last week, so i hope i can do good on it! If i do it would mean that i have the whole next semester to focus on the last chapter! Well i have to focus on the 3/4 of the more advanced math course i am doing at the same time too though... >.<

In addition to that i have to say that my chocolate calendar is getting weirder and weirder... The latest days the chocolate has been shaped after stuff like cars, soccerballs and little fishies... I WANT CHRISTMAS STUFF! RAWR! :p

And i only have 5 more days of school left and then its holidays!!! And my family is going skiing so i have the whole house for myself. Relax relax! ^^

That kinda concludes this session of rambling i guess... Stay tuned! ^^

Alien!

2004-12-12T01:23:00.000+01:00

So i watched the first Alien movie again today. Even though its from 1979 its still good. I mean, besides the fact that the alien is so stiff, theres not really much to complain about on the effects and stuff. Sure its not as good as in the new movies, but it dosnt suck either. But i cant figure out what all the small blinking lights are for...
I wish Alien vs Predator was as good as this one... It had soooo much potential, and i waited for that movie sooooo long, and then it came out and sucked.. :p

Anyway, i wish i live in USA. It sure is a nice country, atleast if you wanna meet nice and friendly people. Atleast the people ive been talking too on irc is nice. :D
Thanks too irc i have a couple of people i REALLY wanna meet (Odie, SSgirl, Jinxer and Seppuku ^^). I wish i had the money too fly around the world a little. :p

Ohh i have to tell you how happy i am that people comment what i write and even use my shoutbox! *jumps up and down happily*

Friday!!! Yay!

2004-12-10T15:26:00.000+01:00

Yay its friday! ^^

I need to start this off with a quote:
Jinxer - "You're super hot, bean!"
First SSgirl and now Jinxer! Well they probably both said it out of pity, but i cant help too feel a little bit more selfconfident after not one but TWO nice comments like that. :)

Next thing is my new shoutbox! Yeah, i added a shoutbox, i dont know why, but it felt like a funny idea (and its not like anyone will write anything to me anyway :p)

And someone stole the chocolate from my calendar!!!! :'(
But from the shape of the plastic thingy under the "door" (what is the thingys you open on the calendar called anyway? :p) i can see it was a fish anyway. Yet again something that has nothing too do with christmas appears in my calendar >.<

Then i have to say that its no fair that everybody only has 3 days left of school when i have 7! Well, atleast i have acces to irc, msn and stuff like that in school anyway so it dosnt really matter, im gonna bugg you all anyway! *ebil grinn* ^^

Total Failure >.<

2004-12-10T01:52:00.000+01:00

ARGH! I failed my math test today :(
And now i have no opportunities to retake it.... Suckalicious, but i just have too live with the fact that i suck at math.. ;)

But too clear my mind i went out rollerblading with some friends, its hard to describe the feeling of rollerblading. Its total freedom. When i put on my rollerblades its just me and the obstacle im rolling, nothing else matters. No worries, no stress, no pressure, no nothing. I love that feeling. :)

Oh and todays chocolate was shaped as a moon, which would be fitting since it gets dark soooooo early nowdays. Too bad it was too cloudy too see the moon tonight. ^^

Well now im gonna go to bed since its 1am and i have school in a couple of hours!

2roll4life! :D

Yay! Passed the math test! <(^_^<)~~

2004-12-08T16:45:00.000+01:00

Yaaaaay~
I passed the math test i had today! :D
Now i have too study for the one i have tomorrow... and the one i have next week.. >.<

And the top news of today is the fact that SSgirl said i was handsome!!! *happy* ^^

Other than that nothing much has happened today, im just glad the test is out of the world now. ;)
Oh, and todays chocolate in the xmas calendar was shaped like a sunflowe... What does sunflowers have to do with christmas? Crapalicious! ^^

Christmascards, DVDs and Tests!

2004-12-07T21:47:00.000+01:00

Woohoooo i sent my first (and only) chrismascard earlier today. Its for a funny person and actually the only one that came up in my mind when i though about who i should send christmascards too.

And of course, since its the 7th decemeber today i had too order the Gilmore Girls Season 2 DVD box and since it was so cheap (amazon.com rules ^^) i put the first season of Dead Like Me in the order too. :p
Thats two GREAT shows that i recomend too anyone that wants something to watch! So check them out!

Ahh Alexis Bledel is so cute~ and shes an great actress too! Now i cant get her out of my mind >.< The bad news is that i have 2 math tests this week... Sucky sucky sucky... I have to study a little for them, dont wanna fail them again... (yes they are both retakes since i suck so bad at math) :(

Oh, and of course this is my first blog! But i have so little on my mind that i guess i wont update this very often ;)
Living on a cloud baby!
And last but not least, the chocolate in my calender was shaped like an angel today, just so you know ^^